Another Reality

I just have to say,
after getting barely any sleep last night,
I do wish you the best.
I do hope you can reevaluate your life
and figure out what you want.

I also hope you can prioritize your life again
but realize how big of a mistake
you’ve made
letting me go
and not keeping me a priority
like I’ve kept you as one.

I thought I’d be by your side
while you sort out your life,
your depression.
I thought I’d be there
with you
as you grow more into who you are.

I thought our love was enough.

I thought our love was stronger than this.
But I guess it wasn’t for you
as much as it still is for me.

I’m still in love with you,
and I don’t know how
to just let you go.

I don’t know how
to live my life
without you in it.

I guess I’ll just have to
take it day by day,
like you will as you figure yourself out.

I’m very proud of you
for being brave
and trying to take charge of your life.
I just wish
you were able to do that
and still have me in your life.

I thought I had decided
I would try to move on last night,
but I wake up this morning
feeling as if I’ve stepped into another reality
and this one isn’t mine.
Because you’re not in it.

I only wish you happiness
and I’m sorry
I wasn’t enough for you.
I love you.

I’m not sure when,
or if,
we’ll talk again,
so I’m saying goodbye for now.

Copyright (C) Jennifer Gioia 2019.

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