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I knew this was too good to be true

I knew I was holding my subconscious emotions back.

No one goes from fiercely loving somebody to just… not.

I knew I was handling this heart break too well.

I wasn’t just surprising myself,

but my friends and family too.

I knew I was jumping back into casual dating too quickly,

to forget,

to move on.

I knew this was too good to be true.

With zero communication since it ended,

I’ve gone cold turkey.

Little reminders of you,

I tried hard to forget,

what you meant to me,

what you mean to me.

But love is everywhere.

You can’t ignore that.

At least, not forever.

I thought ignoring it

would make the pain less present.

I thought ignoring it

would make it easier to breathe.

I thought ignoring it

would make it easier to no longer love you.

I read today no communication is the only way to move on.

That until you know you’d feel okay

if you saw the one

you used to love

kissing someone else in the street,

no communication is the only way.

If I saw you

kissing someone else in the street,

I would hope I’d be okay.

But the thought of that right now,

has cracked my subconscious seal.

I’ve broken down.

I still love you.

I still want you in my life.

But I know you’re not my Mr. Right.

You were my Mr. Right Now.

You are my Mr. Wrong.

I deserve my Mr. Right,

but that won’t happen anytime soon

with me still loving you.

I knew this was too good to be true.

Jennifer Gioia (C) 2019

“If I Could Tell My Adolescent Self What I Know Now” – ELITE DAILY

“If I Could Tell My Adolescent Self What I Know Now” – ELITE DAILY

I stumbled upon this link from my 25-year-old cousin who shared it over Facebook. I believe everyone should read this, no matter your age.

Lena Oh wrote this beautiful article. It made me cry. It made me revaluate my life — past, present, future.

Some of her points are hard to accept with her main point, let go. “Let go of pain; let go of anger; let go of regret; let go of resentment; let go of the past; let go of mistakes; let go of the ex; let go of the disappointment. Surrender it all.”

However, they are all necessary and well-deserving of doing.

I hope this article helps all of you, just as it has helped me.

Let Me See

 

I will cry no longer.

I have become stronger.

My mistakes and my anger,

They tore me down,

And made me frown.

But I’m coming back around.

I’m heading high,

Up towards the sky,

I’ve stopped asking why.

I am following you,

To see what to do.

Because like the few,

You are invincible.

You are my miracle.

And don’t forget irresistible.

You have forgiven me.

It is time to find the key.

So please let me see,

Because we were meant to be. Continue reading Let Me See

I Still Do.

 

You caused me so many nights of distress.

Even though its been six months already.

I still loose my appetite when I see you.

I still want to scream at you when your alone.

I still feel like punching you in the face when you laugh with your friends.

I still want you to feel betrayed and hurt.

I still want you to know what I’m feeling.

You still make my blood boil when I hear your stupid voice.

I still want to slap your sly grin off your face when you make a stupid remark.

Even though its been six months,

Even though you apologized,

Even though I forgave you,

I still hate you for what you did to me.

I still do. Continue reading I Still Do.