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I miss that feeling

Part of me thinks I might still be heartbroken,

That I miss you.

But I won’t allow it.

Maybe I’m just lonely

Maybe I just miss what we had,

What you were to me.

I miss how deeply you saw me,

All my little quirks,

My predictabilities,

My flaws.

You knew me for all that I am.

I miss that feeling.

You taught me what Jane Austen said best,

“I must learn to be content with being happier than I deserve.”

I just can’t wait to feel that way again,

This time with the right man at the right time.

Jennifer Gioia (C) 2019

I knew this was too good to be true

I knew I was holding my subconscious emotions back.

No one goes from fiercely loving somebody to just… not.

I knew I was handling this heart break too well.

I wasn’t just surprising myself,

but my friends and family too.

I knew I was jumping back into casual dating too quickly,

to forget,

to move on.

I knew this was too good to be true.

With zero communication since it ended,

I’ve gone cold turkey.

Little reminders of you,

I tried hard to forget,

what you meant to me,

what you mean to me.

But love is everywhere.

You can’t ignore that.

At least, not forever.

I thought ignoring it

would make the pain less present.

I thought ignoring it

would make it easier to breathe.

I thought ignoring it

would make it easier to no longer love you.

I read today no communication is the only way to move on.

That until you know you’d feel okay

if you saw the one

you used to love

kissing someone else in the street,

no communication is the only way.

If I saw you

kissing someone else in the street,

I would hope I’d be okay.

But the thought of that right now,

has cracked my subconscious seal.

I’ve broken down.

I still love you.

I still want you in my life.

But I know you’re not my Mr. Right.

You were my Mr. Right Now.

You are my Mr. Wrong.

I deserve my Mr. Right,

but that won’t happen anytime soon

with me still loving you.

I knew this was too good to be true.

Jennifer Gioia (C) 2019

Without You

At night I lie awake,

and I think of you.

I wonder if you think of me too.

Do you have just as much trouble

falling asleep without me

as I do you?

I hold back tears,

as I look at the emptiness

next to me in our bed.

They slowly escape anyway.

I wipe them away.

I won’t let myself break.

Why can’t the days move any faster

so you could be in my arms once again?

I feel pathetic,

and lonely,

and lost.

I don’t have a home,

without you.

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Those Tears, They Haunt Me.

 

Those tears, they haunt me,

When the sun goes down,

And the house is asleep.

Those tears, they haunt me,

When no one is around.

My thoughts, how deep.

Those tears, they haunt me.

My chest grabs a hold.

My throat swells up.

Those tears, they haunt me.

I try to fit into my mold,

But I feel as if I’ll pop.

Those tears, they haunt me.

Everything is serene,

Everything is well.

Those tears they haunt me,

But this is no dream,

I always seem to dwell.

Those tears, they haunt me.

I finally let them fall,

I am beautiful, after all. Continue reading Those Tears, They Haunt Me.

I’ve Only Shed One Tear.

 

I’ve only shed one tear,

Because of you.

But I know I’ll shed more.

It’s undeniable.

You know I will.

Because of you,

You’ve shown me

What true happiness is,

What true laughter is,

What true love is.

Because of you,

You’ve shown me

What true sorrow is,

What true regret is,

What true heart break is.

I’ve only shed one tear,

Because of you.

But I know I’ll shed more.

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