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I knew this was too good to be true

I knew I was holding my subconscious emotions back.

No one goes from fiercely loving somebody to just… not.

I knew I was handling this heart break too well.

I wasn’t just surprising myself,

but my friends and family too.

I knew I was jumping back into casual dating too quickly,

to forget,

to move on.

I knew this was too good to be true.

With zero communication since it ended,

I’ve gone cold turkey.

Little reminders of you,

I tried hard to forget,

what you meant to me,

what you mean to me.

But love is everywhere.

You can’t ignore that.

At least, not forever.

I thought ignoring it

would make the pain less present.

I thought ignoring it

would make it easier to breathe.

I thought ignoring it

would make it easier to no longer love you.

I read today no communication is the only way to move on.

That until you know you’d feel okay

if you saw the one

you used to love

kissing someone else in the street,

no communication is the only way.

If I saw you

kissing someone else in the street,

I would hope I’d be okay.

But the thought of that right now,

has cracked my subconscious seal.

I’ve broken down.

I still love you.

I still want you in my life.

But I know you’re not my Mr. Right.

You were my Mr. Right Now.

You are my Mr. Wrong.

I deserve my Mr. Right,

but that won’t happen anytime soon

with me still loving you.

I knew this was too good to be true.

Jennifer Gioia (C) 2019

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I Deserve You

This is my first poem about you.

This is my first real adult relationship after college.

This is my confession to you:

I love you.

I haven’t told you yet.

It’s only been four months,

but I know this feeling,

and I’m sure in this feeling.

It’s crazy to think about it.

What’s even more crazy is the fact I’ve waited until now to know what I deserve,

and to not take anything less.

I deserve you.

I deserve to be treated with respect.

I deserve to be romanced.

I deserve to be called beautiful every day.

I deserve to have all my inspirations encouraged.

I deserve to have all my aspirations supported.

I deserve to not intimidate you

with my confidence,

with my happiness,

with my grit and determination,

with my success;

as so many men in the past have been.

I deserve to smile when it rains.

I deserve to laugh when I cry.

I deserve to overthink

and have you pull me backwards.

I deserve to try new things.

I deserve to explore new places.

I deserve to have fun.

I deserve to live life to the fullest.

All with you.

I deserve to be loved.

And I want to be loved by you.

Copyright (C) Jennifer Gioia 2018.

I Only Want You.

[Introduction]

When I first met you,

I wasn’t sure

What to do.

This kind of relationship is all new to me.

I questioned if I should give you

My heart’s key?

We enjoyed each other’s company

And I still don’t know

What to make of it, Baby.

 

[Chorus]

All I know is that I only want you.

I just want you to hold me tight

And never let me go.

I know this whole thing is wrong,

But Baby,

I only want you.

 

[Verse 2]

There are plenty of guys out there for me.

Too many,

Actually.

All they want is me.

But I won’t give myself to them,

Because they’re not my Sweetie.

If I do,

I will feel cheated,

Cheated out of you.

 

[Verse 3]

They won’t leave me alone.

But now you will?

What happened? I moan.

Did you change your mind?

Because I definitely didn’t change mine.

I’m about to wind.

I promise I can be anyone,

I can be anything,

Please don’t say we’re done.

 

[Chorus]

All I know is that I only want you.

I just want you to hold me tight

And never let me go.

I know this whole thing is wrong,

But Baby,

I only want you.

 

[Verse 4]

As long as you only want me.

Because I only want you,

Baby.

I know that this relationship isn’t perfect.

It didn’t start out perfect

And it won’t end perfect.

Let’s just embrace

The flaws of us

And express them through our face.

 

[Verse 5]

Now you won’t return my texts,

You won’t return my messages.

Was this all just about the inevitable sex?

Where did you go?

Why won’t you call?

I feel so low.

I hope I don’t come off

As desperate,

Because at times I can appear soft.

 

[Chorus]

All I know is that I only want you.

I just want you to hold me tight

And never let me go.

I know this whole thing is wrong,

But Baby,

I only want you.

 

[Verse 6]

I still don’t know much about you,

But your eyes tell a different story,

Just as mine do.

Tell me something I don’t know.

I feel as if I’m on my own.

Woah.

Give me a way out

Of this downward spiral,

I pout.

 

[Verse 7]

I need you here.

I need you with me.

Please listen, dear.

 

[Chorus]

All I know is that I only want you.

I just want you to hold me tight

And never let me go.

I know this whole thing is wrong,

But Baby,

I only want you.

 

[Conclusion]

I only want you.

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